Riding The Waves & The Undertow

By Heather Fraser

So much has happened since last month. It would impossible to say we are anywhere close to being the same people we were then.

I don't know about you, but I am currently walking a tightrope between the exhilaration of birthing new creative ventures and feeling the despair and fear of a humanity that knows it is swiftly losing touch with all things that in the past, were deeply familiar, secure and comforting.

Out with the old. In with the new. It's an unstoppable wave of "reconstruction" from which there is no escape.

I can feel this old/new duality so clearly. What's old feels heavy, dark, and stagnant. (fear, the known, external security.) What's new feels light, fun, flowing, creative. (joy, mystery, inner security.) Right now I'd say that that unstoppable wave is smack in the middle of my own life, stirring up all the bottom feeder crud that was still in hiding while at the same time, pouring in fresh, new, crystal clear, rejuvenating waters.

For example, earlier in March, three days before the earthquake struck in Japan, I was blessed to experience a full 24hrs that was free of my usual weekday of motherly schedules, timetables, activities, meal-planning, driving. The day was mine, and I seized it by completely giving it over to Spirit.

What ended up happening was a field trip out of town to my favourite rock and gem store to browse around. I love the drive and it was such a sunny, beautiful morning.

To make a long story short, I spent three full hours there, because some angel of a lady who works there wondered if I wanted to make my own jewellery. I had been looking at a pendant and loved the particular setting it was in, but not the stone. I asked her if she had anymore of these pendants but with a different stone. She said no, but suggested that I could make my own. In that moment I felt such a huge surge of pure creative delight. I asked her how, and she preceded to show and tell me everything I needed to know. The store is well known for it's gemstones, jewellery and beading classes.

I spent the next few hours letting my creativity choose stones and settings, deciding how well they would look together, bought the glue, bought the little stone file required to rough up the stone where the glue goes, and left there in a daze of gratitude knowing how much fun I was going to have making pendants for myself.

That evening I made eleven pendants that exuded the earthy groundedness and spiritual beauty of heaven on earth. The feeling that this experience inspired, from beginning to end, from the morning drive out there, to the last finished pendant, was pure and utter joy.

What ended up happening was that every time I wore a new pendant, someone wanted to buy it! I sold one the very first day I made them, and in less than one month, they are flying out the door with my intention that they will contribute to grounding heaven on earth.

In with the new. Light. Fun. Unknown. Spontaneous. Unexpected. Creative. Abundant. Joyful. Intuitive.

It's hard to explain, but I'll give it a go — at the same time as the fresh, new waters are pouring in, I am also being pulled down by the undertow of my own, and that of mass consciousness's dark fears of survival.

Every time I hit the bottom, (the old) I feel like I am basically holding on for dear life until I am bounced back up to the surface where I can suck in the life giving fresh air, feel grateful for this new, exhilarating energy, and trust that this sort of roller coaster ride into the new world will eventually balance itself out where calmer waters will be the norm — aka: wholeness.

When I'm riding high on the recent waves of creativity, empowerment, autonomy, joy, and inner security, it seems as though I am very quickly reminded that I had better deal with this "other" stuff over here — you know — the stuff that might have the words "the old way" attached to it.

And so, the body slamming, wave dunking gyrations I think are all part of the new hand we're being dealt. In order to move fully into the new as whole, integrated Beings, there's gonna be some shake, rattle, and roll kinda energy going on within our own beings and the world Being. It's just the way it is right now, and the way it is, simply IS. We need to learn to flow with both the present evolutionary tidal waves and the calm, resting waters. Somewhere down the road I'm sure the rhythmic, undulating, gentle grace of a more moderate, continually expanding and advancing Universe will make itself known.

In the meantime, let's ride the waves of "out with the old and in with the new" to exhaustion if we have to. We're like the oyster being irritated to produce a pearl.

The end result is beautiful...

Copyright 2011 Heather Fraser — www.sacredscribe.com You may make copies of these articles and distribute in any media as long as you change nothing, credit the author, and include this copyright notice and website address.

About Heather Fraser

Heather Fraser is a writer who has come to understand the meaning of her life as an expression of the sacred and soul of everyday living.

You can contact Heather through her website at www.sacredscribe.com

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March, 2012: Mystical Ecstasy

June, 2011: The End of Suffering

May, 2011: The Grace of Letting Go

April, 2011: Riding The Waves & The Undertow

March, 2011: What Dreams May Come

February, 2011: She Who Enters The Gate

January, 2011: Calling All Angels

December, 2010: Creative Soul

November, 2010: Nature As Benevolent Teacher