The Lost Article

From Cal Garrison

I am caught between being on fire with a desire to live and actualize my purpose and the feeling that at this point, does having a purpose even matter? Our future is so up in the air, are we crazy to keep thinking that anything we do matters anymore? It scares me to voice this out loud because on some level I know that everything we do makes a difference — and my sudden lapse in enthusiasm re; my purpose has me wondering if some unacknowledged fear lies curled up at its root, eating away at everything that fills me with life.

More than anything right now, I am clear that each one of us is alive at this time because we came here to ease the Earth's passage into the Fifth World. I am also clear that we need to be putting all of our highest ideals into practice in our daily lives in and in all of our interactions with others. Maintaining that level of awareness in a world whose sole function seems to be to pull us totally out of ourselves becomes difficult for even the most saintly among us — and what I'm wondering is, if our consciousness has so much to say about how things unfold in the next few years, would it help us to rearrange our mundane priorities in a way that allows us to remember who we are and what we really came here to do?

I don't know about you but I've been looking at what I do every day and thinking about how I am with people. Up until about a month ago it wasn't that important because work and a heavy dose of life changes consumed me. Since November I've had the freedom to look at how I live and get closer to what gives me joy — and I have come to realize that my being ness thrives on simplicity and peace. After years of holding the belief that life only works when you push it to the limit I finally understand that too much going on is detrimental to the spirit.

This revelation came with a whole new sense of where I want to direct my energy. Somehow or other all I want to do is be free to just be — to wake up without a whole lot of pressure to perform, to pay attention to the sun when it rises, to watch the birds and take the time to notice the way the wind moves in the trees. And I want my work and my relationship to what's "out there" in my life to be an extension of the relationship that I form to nature and to my higher self — to have the flow between the inner and the outer worlds be smooth enough to allow me to be who I am when I am involved with outer things.

Maybe this has something to do with getting old, because the older I get the less I want to knock myself out. And while nothing I accomplish comes through force or endurance, I seem to be accomplishing more than I did when I functioned under the illusion that hard work and persistence pays off. Sometimes I think I'm under the influence of a retroactive effect and that this period of ease and effortlessness is my reward for overtaxing all of my faculties in my youth; or is it something else?

It would be an understatement to say that things are changing. Hello? We're going through a dimensional shift; and the story goes that we're already merging with energies that are out of this world. If my urge to go with the flow needs another explanation, could it be considered a response to the influx of frequencies that are reminding us how to create out of nothing?

On the day that this thought occurred to me I began to observe myself more closely. I started to watch what evolved out of my willingness to trust that whatever gave me joy would be enough to hold every aspect of my life in place. This experiment has been ongoing for the last nine months. To make a long story short, I think I figured out the secret to life. All we have to do is just be, and everything else takes care of itself.

If this sounds like a cop out, believe me, I've considered that possibility. But in light of the fact that everything we do right now depends upon our ability to remain in the Heart could it be that this joy thing has more to do with our purpose than anything else? The whole idea of copping out isn't what it appears to be. What I said earlier about rearranging our priorities to allow for more space for spirit to filter in and transform us seems to be the key to changing the world.

How much do we overcomplicate our lives? If we really examine what we do every day, how much of it takes us away from ourselves? And if we claim to be able to remain centered in the midst of external pressure, how much of that pressure is worth what it takes to conquer the pull to succumb to it? Where did we get the idea that everything, including our spirituality, is an endurance test? And what makes us think that doing our part on the front lines of the New Age has anything to do with forcing our limited perceptions of what needs to happen on a situation that is no longer bound by 3rd dimensional laws?

Most of us know that we're in the middle of a whole new ball game. Ever since the Blue Star appeared back in October 2007 the dynamics have changed. I won't patronize you by pointing out what must be totally obvious to anyone who's reading this. Suffice it to say that the old way of approaching life just doesn't work anymore. Instead of wondering what the Hell happened to our sense of certainty or purpose, it looks to me like we'd do better to surrender to the call to just BE.

About Cal Garrison

Cal Garrison is a practicing astrologer with 40 years of experience. At present she goes between casting horoscopes, writing books, and working as the personal assistant to Drunvalo and Claudette Melchizedek. Editor in Chief at Drunvalo's online magazine, 'The Spirit of Ma'at', Cal is also a syndicated columnist for the Associated Press. An author with five books to her credit, and another one on the way, Ms. Garrison is well known for her affiliation with the late Slim Spurling. Out of love for her mentor she continues to support his research with her dowsing, through her articles, and as the spokesperson for Slim's tools at all of Drunvalo's workshops. A single mother with three grown daughters, Cal lives happily in the Red Rocks of Sedona, Arizona. She can be reached at: cal.garrison@gmail.com