From Separation into Unity

By Julia Griffin

Dissolution is defined by Merriam-Webster as "the act or process of dissolving" or "separation of a component into parts". The separation of the ego and the soul is an important piece during metaphysical transformation. When the inner life is awakened, the outer life often falls apart, only to come together to create a more perfect life. It is by balancing the darkness in our lives through the light of the heart and soul that we create unity.

The ego's identity, as what is "important" in the outer world, simply dissolves in pieces or as a whole. The process can be seen in the outer world as many individuals lose their occupation, spouse, home, health or families. This experience is familiar to me, and it is known to many light workers, who stepped into the light only to watch their entire outer life dissolve.

It is not that having homes, occupations or family is negative. Rather, it is our identification with the exoteric or outer world that limits our expansion. The components of our lives that are based on negative ego identification fade into nothingness with awakening. This is always a profound time of learning esoteric truth and of seeing the beauty of truth in form. Through the passage of separation or dissolution, life truly does begin to take on the outer form of the True Self.

In the mid 90's, my personal transformation began. My heart chakra suddenly opened, and the light of the Universe poured in (see April issue of Spirit of Maat). I was completely changed, yet my life was the same. A few months later, I met wolves — real wolves. Immediately, I could hear the voices of animals and, soon after, plants and people. I could see auras easily. I felt the most splendid bliss when the world opened into the language of the heart. I breathed and the world responded. Light flooded my being and the room when I meditated. I could lay hands on an injury, and it would heal.

My emotions also oscillated wildly. When I became upset, the lights blinked on and off. The front door would open and close. It was very frightening and overwhelming. I was aware that I emitted energy when I became angry, just as energy flowed from my hands when I healed others or grew herbs in the garden. I lacked skills in communication and in balancing my gifts.

I lived in a small, rural community. There was no one with whom I could talk, and I was lonely. My most profound conversations were with the wolves because they understood my feelings and comforted me. Maya, my first wolf, soon came to live with me.

Jung thought that wolves symbolically "bite through" the knots of our lives. The word, lupus, is based on the root word "lux", which means light. He believed that wolves bite through the nonsense and confusion of life so that we open to the light. Certainly, this was my experience.

With Maya's arrival, my life changed. Maya was a beautiful wolf-hybrid with the rich fur of the Alaskan wolves and the sweet temperament of a Malamute cross. With her help, I became stronger and more centered. She talked to me constantly, advising me whenever needed. She helped in establishing a link with my inner voice so I could better differentiate between my true voice and the voice of my ego.

In the sweetness of the time, there was also deep bitterness. My ex-husband, a powerful person, became manipulative as he sought to use my developing powers for his own use. Like many healers, I lacked personal boundaries, and my tendency was to enable others if I felt compassion or "love" for them. With Maya's presence, I could no longer give away my power. My desire for self-respect became stronger than my need for my approval. As a result, our very long marriage abruptly ended with a war.

Six months later, I left my home and the thirty acres that had become my life. I drove away in my old car with my 2 children and a wolf to live with a friend and her 2 children. I had very little income and a job as a librarian twenty miles from my new location. My ex-husband offered no support. His highly developed energetic skills were used in the form of psychic attacks.

My family offered little support, and I truly wondered how I would continue with my life. I meditated for hours in an effort to proceed through the labyrinth of chaos that had become a nightmare. One of the most redeeming factors in the whole process was the love. Somehow, I managed to stay in a place of love a great deal of the time. My children and my wolf were sustaining forces, who poured out their love and belief in me.

As my life fell apart, I knew that I must sink or swim. I spent most of each night in deep meditation. I realized that I had not really used my gifts or tried as hard as I truly could. I prayed for the opportunity to try. Each time that I gathered my courage, the light answered my requests.

I began a yoga practice, read metaphysics, and practiced meditation constantly. Through the help of my friends, I found a beautiful home near my work. My income was not enough to pay the bills, and it was during this time of near desperation that I learned about conscious creation. If I visualized food, then neighbors delivered unneeded produce from their gardens or the check-out price of groceries would become very small (believe me, I added it up in my head.)

Money came from unexpected venues or appeared in my dictionary or Thesaurus. Utility bills were incredibly low. I experimented with many of the processes that are used in my methods for manifestation during this time period. Through seeing and feeling psychically, I could create my desired manifestations. By harnessing the powers that were awakened by the wolves, I learned how to absolutely focus on what I wanted so much that the present didn't exist. Through this skill, I could move through my life challenges.

The gates of power are accessed by moving through fear. Help from heaven always came at the eleventh hour, but it only came through mastering a thought, an emotion or action. The power to create these changes came through changing my beliefs. I didn't think that I was capable of working 8 hours; cleaning, cooking and gardening; and giving my children adequate attention and love. Somehow, I did it and rode through the waves of destruction that struck my outer life. By clinging to the light, I eventually found myself on a shore where darkness was not.

Through the development and expression of my gifts, my life changed in time. I reaped the harvest of my inner self. I am grateful, in retrospect, for this time of surrender, learning and difficulty.

Many people in the world are sharing this experience during this time of change. There is light on the other side of the door. Here is a compilation of personal insights and tips for moving through the storm of "separation".

1) Realize that this is an opportunity

2) It won't last forever. You can move through the storm by focusing on love and developing your meditation skills. Keep a journal to discover the difference in the voice of intuition and ego.

3) It's a wake-up call. This is your big chance to move into the light. See how you can improve yourself, focus on loving yourself. Practice kindness as often as possible.

4) Realize that everything belongs to God. Nothing is really ours but the gift of life. Everything else is on loan.

5) Practice gratitude.

6) Develop boundaries. Stop enabling others and stand up for yourself. Give up victimhood.

7) When everything falls apart, it's a great time to do all of the things that you always wanted to do. There's nothing to lose. Take the class, take risks, and give everything your best. You are learning what works and what doesn't.

8) Use your talents, share your gifts.

9) There are real miracles, but God usually acts through other people. See the goodness in others and bless it. Accept help in whatever form that it appears.

10) Use this opportunity to become involved with good causes. Do some good with whatever you have left.

11) Learn the art of conscious creation. Now is the best time ever!

12) You are blessed in that the whole world is awakening with you. You are having a group consciousness experience with the world, and it is very cool — despite how it might feel.

13) Your life will become wonderful when the transformation is complete. You may still experience problems, but they won't be so difficult. Everything will become easier.

Julia Griffin is an intuitive healer who has successfully transformed the lives of thousands of people through her manifestation and meditative techniques. She teaches these techniques in her group classes, one-on-one sessions, and e-courses. Julia has been a contributing writer for Spirit of Maat. She has a deep understanding of energetics based on extensive studies. She is an alchemist, astrologer, herbalist and Reiki master. She has the ability to communicate with plants and animals. She lived with wolves for nine years, while developing her intuitive abilities.

She recently launched the Julia Mystery School e-course; these workshops embody advanced teachings for those who want to deepen their understanding of how we create our personal "reality". Julia offers a free monthly newsletter that includes manifestation, meditation and energetic techniques, the One True Self enewsletter at www.onetrueself.com

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